When will it click?

Total lost: -2.2 lbs.
Next goal: -18 lbs.
To go: -16 lbs.

Last night, around 11:30pm, I cooked half a box of Barilla Plus elbow pasta. I'm not sure why. I wasn't hungry. I was bored, I guess. I wanted to eat something, and I had virtually nothing to snack on around here. I'd already way exceeded my points for yesterday too. I pretty much always do, because I know I'll probably be eating at Fazoli's, and what I usually eat there runs me at least 17 points. Granted, I did go for a quick walk yesterday, but that amounted to about 2 activity points.

This morning, I'm starting in already with the bad choices, and by bad choices, I mean that I didn't just eat breakfast and leave it at that. I'm already snacking. I've had two Kashi waffles and two 100-calorie packs of Hostess mini cakes. Doesn't sound all that bad, but it reflects my complete lack of structure on the weekends. I have the hardest time planning meals on the weekend - namely with regard to breakfasts and lunches. So I think today, I'll try and redeem myself. I'm going to plan out the next week's meals and get my grocery list together. I'm going to push myself to work out (even though sometimes it can be hard, since my feet have been hurting off and on for months). I've got to get going.

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OK, here it is, 10pm, and I've been to the store. I haven't worked out (unless you count a trip to Kroger as a workout), and I've had some bad stuff to eat since breakfast. I bought a chess bar at Kroger, and because they didn't have any rotisserie chickens left, I got breaded chicken tenders. But I had WW mac & cheese and a couple of carrots with it. But it seems like every time I go to Kroger, I get this urge to buy myself something "good" that's really bad. I've got to stop that. It's not helping me at all. I've got to get to the point where I even plan out snacks. I have at least two pairs of pants in the closet, and five-plus shirts that I either can't wear or don't feel comfortable wearing because my gut hangs out too far. When is it that that "thing" in my head will snap again? When will my positive, motivating thoughts become reality?